Feel that I am falling in love with a pre op TS girl I have never wanted to have sex with a man and I never would. I feel it would be so nice just to hold Emma in my arms to kiss her she is very feminine and more passable than I am and she is having the SRS early next year I do not wish to touch any male parts as I find them disgusting and I am also waiting to have SRS but I may have to wait for some years to come. I feel that I would like to touch Emma’s hair to kiss her on her lips she is very intelligent lady and I love to listen to her speak to me watch every expressions of her face and her femininity very much like cuddle her and to touch her breast knowing that she was born male does nothing to put me off; however there is one problem I have asked Emma out which she declined and I live in the same house as Emma and I do not wish to make things more awkward for both of us so I do not think I should just kiss her, she is in my thoughts all the time now and even genetic females are not in my mind right now as I have in fact fell in love with Emma she is lovely lady, she says that she would like to find a man so I do not feel I have any prospects of a relationship but I found myself each and every day falling more in love with her. I have tried to look else where as I realize that if she is not interested in me then I should look else where and find some one who finds me attractive and falls in love with me as I have fallen in love with Emma. I truly hope she finds some one to love her as Emma.

I find my self searching for TS girl who as the same qualities and femininity as Emma as I would have never thought of falling in love with a TS girl until now that I got to know and respect Emma.